Archive for March, 2009

Love, Does My Mind Playing Trick on Me Again…

Friday, March 27th, 2009
Waiting Trisno Jalaran kulino, Benci tapi Rindu, Malu-malu Mau, No No but Yes Yes……, all that kind of stuff are haunting me nowadays, “Does my heart feels the right feel or it just my mind playing trick with my heart again”, nevertheless I’ve got eaten by my own great says “Sok-sok an”.

After finishing mentally exhausting scenario problem with someone that literally I have should known better from the very start, I finally succeed to put my heart in the right position, that because I finally known that my mind does playing trick in this very scenario, the loneliness, a little bit of stress that I have (The Crack of an Ambition), less of dedication on what I want, bitter sweet feels, all that mixed up of feels has create a loose canon that force me to drink from a forbidden glass that deep inside I really don’t want to, but thank’s Lord have mercy on me, that’s all in the past right now, and I’m glad it ends in a smooth way at least for me, I’m done and please with my self in this scenario……….

But in the name of Leonidas (300 the movie), Like himself whose never imagine the enemy was emerge from the place that he himself would never imagine, another feels emerge and stab my heart from the bottom of no where, a darkness that I even insanely avoid to peek, a door that I’ve always shut and never think to open, that door of darkness suddenly appear right before my eyes, dazzle me with seven color of chakra (like in the 1st naruto movie) which is so extremely beautiful, with no warning not even a single glimpse from my mind, that it will shine so brightly and caught my eyes to admit it with no resistant at all, this is not me at least not the usually me…………….

Does My Mind playing trick on My Heart again, or this time it’s the other way around My Heart is playing trick with My Mind……

Which one is true My Heart or My Mind……,

How does it’s work anyway,does the mind tells the heart what to do or the heart tells the mind what to do…….,

How do I know which one is true the heart or the mind…….,

And how do I know which one is says yes and which one is says no……,

Which One is true……,

Is This Feel is real or it doesn’t……,

Both Mind and Heart are giving me the Yes sign and No sign, how I’m going to decide it which is the true…….

Someone Says to me………

Just “ACT”……, and Judge it both with heart and your mind…,

You will find the truth, within the action…..

“It Does”

by:HummingBird

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